They told me to move on and I showed them I had. I pretended to smile, but the knife had cut deep. I am still waiting. For surely one day you will come home, back to me, where you belong.

I get on with the daily chores of living and there is no sign of you. Not yet anyway. The children will be home soon so I must get their supper ready. I am waiting…

I see you on the street walking hand in hand with another. You walk on by, barely noticing me. I feel hurt and vow to move on. But when I get home I choose to wait.

Nobody really understands the deep internal pain. They just tell me to move on and yet nobody shows me how. So you see I am still waiting.

The children are teenagers now, living a life almost independently of their own. They never mention you anymore as neither do I. But in my heart, still I am waiting…

Each night, when everyone has retired and gone away or I come home from a hard day’s work, I cry myself to sleep because … you see I am still waiting.

I hear your laughter ringing in my ears each time I think of you, along with the tears. The words you used to say linger in my mind still, right to this day as I am waiting.

It wasn’t so long ago that we used to stay out late and have fun filled evenings of pure delight. The memories have stayed with me this long as if it were yesterday.

Tired and withered … I am still awake. Too much effort to keep this smile plastered on my face. I am a grandparent at 58. If only you would come my way … I’ll just wait.

When they ask me how I am, I say I am fine. I know it’s mad when I look at this empty space beside me and I think of the good times we had …I am still waiting.

My future lays optimistically in front of me, they say, full of wonder and glory but I know I will still be waiting… because you see, one day, you will come back to me…

That’s why I’ll just wait…because as you left me all those years ago, that’s what you told me to do … and because I have spent my entire life waiting and I don’t know what else there is to do… so it’s best to just wait…

By Ms April Showers

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Water Essentials

Water is the most essential element on earth. This element is known as H2O and is made up of hydrogen and oxygen.

Water comes in 3 basic forms:

  1. Solid: in the form of ice and on the polar caps of our planet.
  2. Liquid: in the form we drink and wash and this form covers most of the surface of this planet.
  3. Gas: in the form of steam and vapour. The clouds represent this as part of the water cycle.

Not only do we depend on water for our very survival, but our actual bodies are made up of about 60% water. That’s well over half the total amount of our body mass!

Clean water is available to us easily in the western world and so we do not need to dwell on its importance. In remote places, where water is not so easily available, the statistics for survival are very low.

Although the given rule of 8 by 8 glasses a day is very much close to the recommended amount on a daily basis for us, there are other factors to take into account regarding how much water we need to consume to remain healthy.

  1. Gender – men need more water than women.
  2. Pregnancy requirements increase need for water.
  3. During illness we lose water and therefore it needs to be replaced.
  4. Increased physical activity causes us to lose water which needs replacing.

The major sign of needing water of course is thirst. But it is recommended that we do not wait to get to this stage before we drink water as dehydration has a dangerous effect on our mind and body.

An increased lack of water in the body is commonly known as dehydration. This condition causes problems such as:

  • Thirst, dry mouth, skin and sunken eyes
  • Headaches, dizziness and fainting
  • Dark yellow urine as well as constipation

To avoid dehydration to your mind and body, make sure you drink plenty of water on a regular basis. Water is one of the first steps towards keeping you thinking normally and physically functioning properly.

Water is essential in human life for the following reasons:

  1. Mind – Still waters run deep. Water can symbolise the stillness and clarity of the deepness of thought.
  2. Body – Our body uses water to wash out the toxins which build up.
  3. Soul – Water is used by many cultures to purify the soul. The flowing water, usually of a river, washes away our sins and gives us a chance to start our life fresh with renewed hope. This flowing water signifies the rebirth and renewal of life.

The water cycle ensures that water is kept on moving around the planet sometimes depriving areas, as in the case of deserts, but most of the time replenishing the planet.

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The Good the Bad and the Ugly

Accept yourself

Leading on from my last post about finding your inner self, it is also important to accept yourself as you are. To begin that journey of positive change, we need to identify who we really are in terms of the good and the bad. It may seem like an easy task, but many people do not even know the basic essence of themselves.

Others may know you better than you know yourself. If you find that many people are consistently describing you as something you vehemently believe you are not, perhaps now is the time to address that issue and confront the side of yourself you had denied. This is the most important part before you can accept yourself in reality.

Identify your inner self. You can do this by describing your inner self without using the external labels such as teacher, mother or even housewife. Value your inner self. Get in touch with your inner desires. Who is inside you? It could be a scary answer such as the wicked witch and you want to hide her from the world. The negative side of yourself is there because you have not been tending your inner needs properly. In other words, you have been neglecting yourself.

How can you be a good mother, sister, or husband, if your inner self is unhappy? This does not mean to say that you should neglect your duties in any way. It means you can fulfil your duties enjoyably by paying attention to your own needs as well as others. Find that personal balance and your life will become more satisfying.

Get in touch with your negative side and find out what is causing it to rear its ugly head. Perhaps you have anger issues. If you choose to ignore this part of yourself, you are not doing justice to yourself. So the basic requirement is to analyse yourself objectively.

Your good points work positively for you. Your bad points have their uses, e.g. anger can ward off enemy but when used in the family situation it can cause more harm than good. In this instance anger disrupts family relationships which results in your inner self becoming unhappy and discontent, thus fuelling more anger.

So instead of pretending you don’t have an anger problem, you can actually address it and use it to your advantage. You can then learn to control this bad habit to suit you. In this way, instead of being a bad habit, anger used correctly becomes a good habit simply because you have manipulated it to suit your advantage.

Once you have established who you are as a person, you can then actually build a positive relationship with yourself. It is difficult to have positive relations with others when you have a poor self-image of yourself.

If you are looking to escape a mundane life by seeking thrills elsewhere, ask yourself, why you want to escape and establish small steps towards a better self. You might begin by reassuring yourself that everything will be o.k. If you are overweight, you need to identify this and accept it before you can do anything about it. If you are an addict, again the answer is to identify it first.

Overcoming the first obstacle is to address the self-denial. Once this has been established you can make plans to move forward successfully.

Accept your inner self for who and what you really are including the good, the bad and the downright ugly.